Moment in Life

Surprisingly pregnant with my 4th child –
single parent, midwife and filmmaker.
Nikolaus, Paula and Michael
are looking forward to their sibling.

His father doesn’t want another child.
Massive rows.
Break up.

That was in March.

Reactions of friends range between surprise
and admiration – sometimes reservation:
As if a 4th child would be a bit “over the top”.

Michael is taking photos,
his godmother Gisela is filming.
These pictures were taken on his third birthday.

The day before Gisela arrived for a visit.

I had called her –
you wouldn’t notice
that I am in deepest despair.